08.21.2001 (Tuesday), 12:21 AM

I May Be a Wimp but I'm A Pussy Too...

so tired, make it stop, no more experimental tripe...

It's a relief to update the site. A week's worth of entries had piled up like newspapers do in our living room. There was so much going on this past weekend--there was no time for tech, just time for writing. And this coming weekend is going to be the same.

The Takeda Intensive Aikido seminar starts on Thursday. I have had a pad of water right below my kneecap for four weeks. I think I broke something when I hit my knee dead on into a heavy steel table leg at work. I can barely kneel on it. If you're at all familiar with aikido, you'll know that there is plenty of kneeling and knees smacking the mat. Sigh.

Neville suggested to me that I test the knee out at the regular dojo. Tonight was that test and how did I do? I give myself a C-. I braced and padded and generally protected it which made my aikido suck. When I didn't protect it, the aikido felt better but the knee suffered. I really shouldn't be on the mat but others have gutted it out and I felt that I should too. I don't know if it can stand up to four straight days of pounding. As Richard-sensei said tonight, "I don't feel that I have to hurt my body just to prove a point...". Hmmm. I'm more of a pussy than I'm willing to admit. I just hope I won't have to admit it while explaining to the doctor why I did what I did...

We'll see how much water collects on the knee overnight. If it looks like I'm growing a second kneecap then I guess a weekend of shooting photos of the seminar then a trip to the orthopedic doctor is in order. I dread being cut open again although an arthroscopy wouldn't be the end of the world...I just hate being semi-immobile. I need room to move.

Posted by wjc